I think if I try to answer that I would be mind reading, and I am trying my best to be a day at a time. However, when I do allow myself to ponder it, I arrive at a few options: She is hoping at some point I will just say "yes, I am dating someone" to relieve her guilt from hurting me and for her dating someone else. -Or- she truly does mean the compliments and she is trying to figure out what motivated the changes b/c she is not in a place in her mind right now to connect the fact that perhaps, I made deliberate changes in myself, on my own and unprovoked by another woman b/c I saw/wanted to change things I did not like. -Or- she is really does wish to take a step towards me, but currently still feel too damaged, unready, confused, ashamed, etc. to feel like she can. That is all I have arrived at. I am not sure I back a particular horse, and I do suppose some hybrid of all of the above could exist on different days.
On the same lines of things I am not reading into are her deep hugs she has been giving me, the occasional cheek kisses, and the recent occasional "I love you"'s she has been dropping.If it was still June, I could still explain it, b/c at that time I thought the A was over, as she said, and I was still fixing/supporting/saving, but now, that is not happening.
Just seeing that you had thoughts about it, was what I expected...
Seeing that you are probably correct on most of those levels, was a little unexpected...
Seeing you type that it doesn't really matter about her, this is about my journey now, and IF she is there at the end, then that will be a bonus...
