6 Months since she said i dont love you (4)

[Natus]

I guess people reading my thread (especially newbies) may think why am i here if im not trying to save the marriage.

DB may or may not save your marriage but it can save you.

I made so many mistakes the first few months (and still am but less now) because i was "trying" so hard to win her back. Since then i've focused on being a better me and my son.

There are some positives now such as the stbx thanking me for being strict with her quite recently, making her want to be better for our son. Before when BD and the next few months one of her major gripes was that im a uptight, self righteous hard ass (her words). Its interesting to note now shes thanking me for the same qualities that she was complaining about.

Shes buying me gifts during her travels. Probably not a biggie but im almost actively avoided her / no-contact so i was not expecting anything.

She sends me pics / updates during her travels and stuff. This part is hard, i've been actively avoiding you for months so im trying to balance no contact and being cordial.

Im cordial but kinda cold in our interactions (in that way that i dont stick around for conversations) but she makes more effort to be nice and tries to initiate convo.

I've asked her directly when are we going to file.(once recently because i feel im ready for it). She says to hold out until after house is sold. We already have an agreement in place to split the sale anyway cause we co-own and pay 50/50 for the house anyway. Not really a big issue for me.

I might be reading to much into it but some may think these are postive-ish signs.

As for me i dont look for positive signs anymore. She's poisoned the well that was my feelings for her. The betrayal shook my core and im literally not the same guy anymore and im embracing it.