One big recommendation I would say to you is to change your user name. Change it to something empowering and let it be a goal as to what you want to be. If you keep calling yourself "Sad Dad", that's going to be your mindset.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.