I seriously don't understand how everyone does it. My life is just so upside down and I am trying to get my bearings. I do see that I am better -- but I have a long path ahead of me. I am reading the forums and articles on HB / HS.
Even though my H has broken my heart (trampled it and shredded it to pieces) -- I still love him deeply. Is this normal? How can I still love him so much when he has hurt me so deeply? Do I really love him or am I just in love with the idea of what we were, the fantasy of him?
Things I have learned so far: *I lost me and having a hard time trying to find myself again. *I'm not perfect, but I was doing the best I could in my situation. *Anything worth keeping -- needs to be nurtured. *I should have focused less on 'cooking from scratch' and cleaning the house after a long day at my day job. I was trying to be the perfect Mom / Wife -- but I am not superwoman. I could not do it all and I was exhausted all the time and always felt like I was failing. *Asking for help does not mean you are not strong. Sometimes you can not do everything on your own. *I am not good at detaching ... not at all.
Me: 42 Him: 45 Daughter: 13 ____________________________________ Married 16 Years, Together 17 Years BD: 8/15/16 Moved out: 8/26/16
