Totally not ok. W brought up D again. Through text. Twice in one day is a record. I know I have been marinating it in my mind for a few weeks. But she'd never brought it up. W - Can you just tell me now if you plan to drag it out? Do you plan to argue or not agree to a divorce? Me - I'm not going to drag it out. But I want it to be fair and I won't let you walk all over me. W - I want to just separate. What is it that you want?
Idk why but this hurts. I guess I was under the impression because I had been thinking about D that I would be ok. Not the case at all. Not sure what W meant with asking me what I want again. I had told her earlier. I don't know what exactly she means anyway. I spoke to a friend and she suggested I stop replying to W. That perhaps w was upset or still mad, and my friend is probably right. The more I thought about it the more it made sense. W takes a while to calm down and not be mad. So I stopped replying.
Had a really bad night last night too. I saw some old Facebook post W left on my Facebook. i lost it. My w is gone. My kind loving beautiful w is long gone and I miss her. I want her. I really just would like a hug. I am making friends, I am. But I'm not really close to anyone. As I was with w. She was my person. I no longer have a person.
