D and MLC

[Pax_luv]

Hi Cil,
I think it's completely normal to have h buzzing around in your brain. Its really hard (almost impossible) just to turn those thoughts off. If you did, you clearly wouldn't be learning much from this situation.

I also agree with the insensitivity. I, too, deal with this. There's nothing worse than seeing pictures on facebook of my stbxh with a group of girls. One "friend" even had a shot of h putting a dollar in a belly dancers skirt. Ugh. I don't believe it's intentional, but it is highly insensitive. And sometimes you just want to say "but what about me? Doesn't anyone care about me?!? rude!"

Ciluzen, you really have grown from this. Your demeanor on here comes off as being very calm and easy going. I say that because I think in real life, we would get along well!

I wish you the best as you get ready to sign those final papers. Keep up the good work and keep staying true to you (even if your IC doesn't totally get it).