So lost, so confused

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I was told last night and again today that she is filing this week. She asked if I wanted to do a collaborative divorce. Is that like a s&$@ pie?

We have a set schedule for the kids, however, she's Been very "busy with work" lately (aka lying). I love the kids and want them all the time so I never turn her down. I've been keeping track just in case she decides to go aggro during divorce proceedings.

Yes. She works. She manages a department in a hospital. Strong income as well.

Besides working out, I've been starting to go out more with friends that I've kind of pushed away the last year due to stress/depression. I've also started to do more work events since before I would rush home to be with the family and now it's often rushing home to an empty house.

Everyone has things to improve on. Being more fit/healthy is one of mine. I've also started working with a life coach to kind of pry more out of me as I've been so closed off for so long.