I am working on my DB techniques as hard as I can. I know that my part of the problem was my communication style. I'm a direct and to the point kind of person (harsh start up). I am working on soft start ups which is a 180 for me. It has been such a challenge, but I'm working on it, if not for this relationship, then my next.
An update . . .
He provided me with his itinerary for his trip for the interview. And based on his where he is flying into and when he is flying, I am suspecting that he is taking the OW. There is a lot of down time. Theoretically, he chose the flight times to save money.
I broke down and straight up asked him. I told him that since I was driving him to the airport, it would really hurt my feelings if I was driving him so he could take a trip with the OW. I asked him if that was the case, to please spare my feelings and find some alternative source of transportation. He claims he isn't going up there with anyone or meeting anyone up there. He claims he wouldn't do that. Uh-huh. When I told him I never thought he would be the type of have an affair, he actually validated my feelings! He actually acknowledged my viewpoint.
I spent my weekend GALing. On Saturday I went to a new restaurant for lunch, on Sunday I went on a really great hike with some friends. We went somewhere I had always wanted to go and it was wonderful. On Monday (work holiday), I took my Little One to the zoo with my father.
It felt good to stay so busy. On the other hand, I just wish we could have done these things as a family. I get so envious when I see families together. It just pulls at my heart so much.
