It doesnt matter what I do, each night mt dreams revolve around the W and the life that I've lost.

I try every single day to concentrate on me and what I can control, but it's always there! The wonderment of what she is thinking - what is it she wants (does she even know). Is there a way back, is anything that I'm doing making a difference?...

I know that concentrating on her and her thoughts are damaging to me, but how the hell do you stop this.

I know that I'm making progress as when I look back I can see that I've come quite far, but every day I have to drag myself through the day only to have do the exact same thing the following day.

M - 36 / W - 32
S - 3
Together - 18 Yrs / Married - 10 Yrs
Bomb Dropped - 4th Sept 2016
Moved out - 4th Sept 2016