[BrightFuture]

Job, thanks for the kind words. My dog has been on antibiotics for two weeks. We actually just finished the last pills tonight. It funny how he had no problems eating these pills with his food for almost two weeks, and then a couple of days ago he started leaving the pills in his bowl, clean and intact, while all other food was gone. I believe that this is a clear indication that he was done with them. I think he started having stomach problems, so he didn’t want to ingest any more antibiotics. The good thing, we are done with the pills. He still shows the signs of disorientation, but I hope he will improve soon. I’m still waiting for the Insurance to pay at least some portion of the bills.

The garage door… There is a broken spring… So, I have a repair guy coming over tomorrow. I already got a quote and it seems very reasonable, even though it is another expense that I don’t really need right now.

Irish, thanks for the hugs! I feel like I really need some right now, even the virtual once. It seems like your xw still has long way to go. Yes, it is totally confusing when they show signs of the normalcy, like their old selves…

And speaking about the rollercoaster… Got a text from H about an hour ago, telling me that he is at his brother’s (my BIL who loves in the same neighborhood)… The time of his text was past 9 pm. He told me that he is wondering if there is any “important” (LOL) mail for him and if I can live it for him tomorrow morning, in a bag or something…. So… after half an hour (stewing about the fact that he wants everything at the last moment and I didn’t have energy or desire to deal with it after 9 pm), I replied with lengthy text… don’t have any energy to post the details right now… I asked him what time he wanted to pick up the mail, and that I might be working from home for a couple of reasons… Actually he gave me a valid excuse to work from home (besides the garage door service that will be coming over late afternoon)… I thought I would go to the office in the morning, but now I think I need to stay home… as it is too much stress for me deal with, LOL…

Haven’t received any reply yet… I have some strange feelings… Part of me doesn’t want to even see him or make any arrangements to accommodate him (then I remember that I still want to stay in our joint condo, so I bite my lips…), and part of me is curious… I’ve been processing my emotions recently, and I keep coming to the conclusion that I need to completely separate myself from anything that still ties me to H. I’m still not sure how to do all of it. But, I think I’m getting there… slowly… I think H already realizes that he made a mistake, but he would not admit it even to himself… And I am getting very impatient with the whole process. I’m thinking more and more these days that I just need to cut it off and move on with my life… We will see what happens tomorrow… I’m looking for a confirmation of my feelings that there is nothing to expect in regards to H making any moves and the he is just using me as a reliable source of “taking care of stuff for him”…