All this from a bad dream about her sleeping with someone I feel numb I just want to tell her that I don't care if she does this and if this is what she wants then she should live her life and good luck to her yet I do not mean this at all

I need sleep

Me:48 W 41
M:18 T:26
2 D 18 & 4
2 S 17 & 13
Bomb: 20/7/2015 in house separation
D filed 06/17
Separate houses 10/17
D Final 29/12//17.