Sage,
Is your H a man? I think he is. Is he married to you? I think he is.
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I keep saying to myself "if only..."

he would ask me to marry him again
he'd suggest renewing our vows
he'd make a verbal commitment

then we'd be ok...


Now... I understand that you WANT him to ask you to M him again, etc. But is he the kind of guy that would never even think of doing that because he has DONE that and is M to you? Would he THINK that is something that you WANT or have you shown him your practical side in the past? Maybe it never even enters his mind because he figures you might think we are already married, why do that again?

Maybe, he WILL ask you. Maybe you will have to ask for what you want.

JMHO

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.