Here's the thing, you child deserves the absolute best, yes? Therefore his primary caretaker also deserves the best since she (you) are his lifeline. One must treat the primary caretaker with fantastic care, like keeping a fancy sports car maintained and in top condition. Why do you feel that your son's primary caretaker deserves anything less than the best? That would mean he deserves less than the best.
Cherry, as I've said before, if I wasn't flamingly straight I would consider you a catch! You are a wonderful person and need to make a small goal of accepting compliments on a daily basis. When someone says something positive about you simply respond with, "Thank you." Nothing else, no self deprecating comments, no denials, no quantification. Simply, thank you.
M 10yrs T 13yrs BD #1Oct 2015-PA between WAH and COW BD #2 April 2016-WH resumed PA, she broke it off Jan 2 2017 WH says he wants divorce April '17-Letting go 2018 D busted DD8, DS6, DS3