Juju, I don't know if you have a spiritual faith, but I have found great comfort in praying for WH. It started as praying for our M and family, and now I pray for him finding his way and making good choices and for healing of our family, which has been so fractured due to this. One of the effects of praying is that it releases my anger. Loving-kindness meditation would probably have the same effect.

(((((Juju)))))

M 16 yrs, WH62, P54
3 adult blended kids
EA 11/13, BD1 6/14
PA fall 14, BD2 2/15
Piecing 2015, BD3 12/15
Separated 4/16
WH moved OW in 5/16
Divorced 6/15/17