Cherry. Filed, moving, spinning..

[Cherry]

Thank you Sara, I really appreciate the duas. And regarding making me strong and powerful, that's all I have really. So far I can't see that much is working with him, he's too all over the place.

2lady, you are right on that. He hasn't really experienced much of S'S life as he has been on and off wayward the whole time, and he isn't capable of looking after S despite how much he says he loves him. I think he struggles with the responsibilities that come along with family life. And regarding the new baby, although he says he will be involved, it's as though he is in utter denial that I'm pregnant. Maybe this is to do with him having never had a father figure, idk.

I think for my own sanity I need to step away from him. I've got work today, so got to straighten up and put my happy face on. Interact with some real people. Strong and confident is key, and that's where I need to be at. When I'm stronger, that's when he seems to begin his temp checks, so getting my head together is the only thing I can do. Nothing else really works with this man, he's too lost in himself and purely focussed on himself and his own needs.