A year ago today:

Saturday 10 October.

What was I doing? Normal, everyday life. Looking forward to a busy day at work the next day and going to a friend and colleagues wedding reception in the evening.

Totally unaware of the hellhole I was about descend into.

Am I alive? Yes.

Am I out of it? No. A long, long way to go yet.

How do I feel? Today, like a stranger to myself sometimes, and a stranger in this world a lot of the time.

Hopefully that will all pass, as everything passes, always.


Me: 48, XH: 42
T: 18 years, M: 15 years

EA/PA 1: 6/2012
EA/PA 2: from autumn 2012-present

BD: 5/2013
ILYBNILWY BD & left: 10/2015

OW conceived: 8/2016
Born: 4/2017

H filed: 7/2017
D final: 28/12/2017