The sun will rise for a new day

[ATPeace]

So looking for a slimming club ideally slimming world locally that I would not be the only guy there is harder than I thought I called the local one and spoke to the person that runs it and she said currently there are no men at her group not sure if this really matters her group meets on a Wednesday so I could go but not sure if I will feel out of place ....

I have rejoined at the gym and will be able to train now when ever I like it is a 24 HR gym so I have little to no excuses I have stopped the personal trainer for now he was very expensive and I have to do this ...this has to come from me

Home life is and has been good W and I are getting along very well I make her drinks she make me drinks been out for lunch a couple of times together we seem to still very much enjoy each other's company she is starting to laugh with me again and is not so sharp and snappy all,the time .... I really do not know how to move this in any direction I a'm scared to bring things up with her as bringing up the past just hurts feelings so this is not a good idea I want to hug her and from time to time I am able to lightly touch her and she does not pull away but this is a comforting touch nothing more and I am scared to overstep the mark

I can continue doing what I am doing ..but I am scared that sooner or later if things do not get better and when I say better I mean if intamacy does not grow between her and I then it could grow between her and another and then she will be gone.

I guess intamacy is the last thing to come back ??

I know keep the focus on me and I am doing this mostly

W went out clubbing over weekend and my emotions were not bothered I just wished her a good night out ...this is change as previously I would have been very upset at the thoughts of her going out and potentially meeting someone

I have my choices I realise this and I do not want to make a decision that I cannot undo so for now my choice is that I remain strong and continue to show my W my loving and caring actions take more of the focus off her but be ther for her in the hope that in time she decides to work on our marriage once again.

I still cry ...I am still emotional I still call the help lines for support but I am feeling stronger

Hugs
Ghost