Cherry. Filed, moving, spinning..

[Cherry]

2lady, I get what you are saying. And none of us truly have a crystal ball to know what will happen down the line. We have both been through a lot in our life's before we had met that forced us to grow up quick, so we were for sure not to naive to understand what we were doing. I don't believe that he knows what he is doing. There has been many talks where he has told both me and his mom that he thinks he will regret this, but he needs to go and learn. He has a history of depression due to things he saw growing up. When he met me he told me how I b the past he made attempts to take his life, one time he ended up in hospital because of this. But when we were in that lovely honeymoon period, he told me he no longer felt depressed. Fast forward a few years, and add life changes on there, him striving to do better at work so he can provide more for the family, promotions and more responsibilities without the pay increase, children. It seems everything is getting too much for him, and the way he sees a way out is to run. He told me not long ago that he felt like he just wanted to leave, even leave the country and go someplace where no one knows him. I don't know much about what is truly going on with him, but I know it is more than me and him, it isn't all about the m. Though that is something he does have a choice to change, like moving out, that's a choice he has to change. I'm not expecting him to go and have an epiphany, maybe it will happen, maybe it won't. Maybe it would and I'd decide that I no longer want him. But that will be a choice I make. I don't think I can reside in the thought that this end would be inevitable one way or another. We fought to start this r, although both of the same religion, we are not of the same culture. And he is of a culture where it is quite frowned upon and does not happen that often that they choose a partner who is outside the norm.

I don't have the choice right now to say on what terms I would expect it to continue, as we aren't there, we may never be. But rest assured IF that was to happen. I would.