Maybs - Pt 4 - where to now?

[maybs]

I'm here. I'm still struggling. I mean I'm doing all those GAL activities and have been trying to not focus on her or think about her. Haven't spoken to her since the day she came to have me sign the papers.

Got the official notice from the court in the mail a couple days ago.

Honestly I've been trying to not focus on anything related to our M or R or anything. I've let myself get wrapped up in Friend A's problems as much as possible, because at least then I'm not thinking about my own problems. It's been helpful having her around she's a good distraction and she's always there for me.

Other than that. Mostly have been keeping to myself. Sometimes I feel like it still hasn't hit me that we really are D'd. Since nothing in my day-to-day has really changed it's hard for me to not just feel "separated".

I'm trying to deal