Vey detached, no longer anxious, in limbo

[Phoebe]

Well, I said that I was taking it in 'stride', and today's walk took me through the land of anger and frustration.

I'm feeling balanced again now, but this whole thing is really remarkably bad. There is very little in my hands left to protect. Almost nothing, actually.

I've also taken a stroll through the land of disgust. 25 years of doing the right thing, financially, and now it hangs by a thread and depends on the court system? Awesome. Disgusted with myself, and with STBXH. I took the high road and didn't want to start the money war, and he took the low road. I was a fool and he is, well, I'll just leave that to someone else to fill in an adjective of choice...

Off to get something done. I know I'll be OK, but I'm taking this morning to feel some of my emotions.

Nothing about this is normal, so I'm gong to have a bit of the emotional whip-saw effect. I know that now, and I also know that I just need to let these new waves flow right on through.