Hey Deb and Minnie,

Thx for the visits!!!

Had a great night last night...when I got home from work h and I decided to go to a movie we knew little about (Hellboy) -- it was spontaneous and FUN! and we both enjoyed it. We grabbed a quick bite afterwards, came home, caught up a bit before turning in.

So...positives from yesterday: h calling with new vacation plans for labor day! our spontaneous date!

Also, h told me last night "do you know how much I love you?" which is awesome because, well, I always like to be reminded!

We also had quite a few LAUGHS with each other and I do believe we even danced together for a minute or two right before going to bed (gotta love THAT!).

In preparation for posting on the KLA thread I was thinking this morning about goals. Had a very important realization...bear with me...

I was thinking about how I'm struggling a bit lately with wanting to be ACCEPTED in my m. for ME...for my personality and traits and plusses and minuses. I was feeling a bit righteous -- like -- I want h to appreciate my organization and my thinking. I want him to accept the manner in which I'm healing...the methods (meditation, yoga, reading) that are meaningful to me, etc.

I was thinking about his statements during the bomb: how I chew stuff up and spit it out, how I'm always looking for a new "solution" in a book or something.

I started thinking "I want to be ME in our M. I want h. to be HIM. I want to be appreciated and accepted". I may have even "harumphed".

And then I started REALLY thinking...about how h told me a few weeks ago he really appreciates my taking the time to investigate solutions (to our vacation plans), how h is totally supportive when I get up in the AM to do yoga, how he keeps bringing up the meditation/yoga place that I was supposed to go to a few years ago that I couldn't go, how he thanks me for my contribution, my energy.

He DOES see the positive aspects of my personality. The "thinking" not the "chewing stuff up", etc.

Maybe the one who's resisting ME being ME is ME?

Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.