Taking the first step...

[Coly23]

I know your right Job, my head agrees with you but my heart is rebelling and I'm having trouble controlling it.

My thoughts are all over the place today.

Is he enjoying himself?

Is there in fact an OW and she knows everything about me/our marriage?

If there is OW is he saying the same things to her that he said to me at the beginning?

Is he writing her the same letters/cards about his love for her?

Is the reason he has left so much of his stuff behind because he is too lazy or worried about having to face me again?

Will i receive D papers out of the blue?

Is he thinking of me?

To make it worse I had text trigger finger this morning! It hovered over my iphone ready to send a 'how's it going'? text. Aargh I'm being really stupid now because I know it won't help but I'm struggling to make sense of anything at the moment!!!