Vey detached, no longer anxious, in limbo

[Phoebe]

Thanks, Cherry and JK. Yeah, WH is winning no prizes for his behavior, that's for certain.

It's been a couple days now and I am surprisingly relaxed about the whole thing, which is a huge measure of how far I've come since December. I mean, all of my financial security gained over the last 25 years through discipline and sheer dint of effort may have very well just gone up in smoke, and I'm... OK?

By this point in the process, yes, I know there are going to be bad days and ugly surprises, but I'm also learning to roll with whatever happens. I've had to let so much go already; what's one more thing? My life will be different without the financial security blanket we knit together over the last 25 years, and I am going to have to live on an austerity budget for a while, maybe even for the forseeable future, but you know what? I know for damn sure that I can do that!

I know how to live in a tent, and how to carry everything I truly NEED to survive in this world on my back. More importantly I know exactly how little I really need in this world. I need food, water, shelter, clothing, and love/friendship. I have those things already, and STBXH can't run away with any of them.

So WH/STBXH is trying to take all of our savings for himself? Well, unlike him, I have me, myself, and I on my side and Team Phoebe is going to make it just fine.

I have my education, I have my brain and skills, I have my health, I have my family, I have my friends, (be it ever so humble) I have my home and farm mortgage-free, I have gardens and chickens to keep me in veggies and eggs, and I have pets that make me laugh every single day. I may have suffered enormous losses in the last 10 months, but I still have so much. Who am I to complain? I have an incredible number of things to be grateful for, and I am.

Good night to everyone. Thank you for checking in and for your concern. Hugs right back to all of you.

And SH, thank you for the rainbow hugs. They matter.