Letting my weight down...

[sage]

Sorry that phone call/email from work stressed you out. I know the feeling all too well. I go through each thought/emotion you described.

How did you handle it?

WELL...not particularly well at first.

I was reading my email and h was reading his. I said "oh, crap, they've been trying to get in touch with me" and ran from the room. He said "your family?" and I said "No, work" with impatience. I ran to get my phone and came back listening to my messages. I think that h was trying to talk with me but I was in my "impatient and distracted and freaking out" mode.

I called the guy back and had a frustrating conversation but I eventually grasped that they had solved the problem (leaving me off the emails related to THAT for some reason).

Then I sat at my computer and tried to figure out HOW to draft an email to the mailing list that sounded as though I was appropriately concerned but NOT making excuses.

The whole time I was in my own little world.

I did send an email.

h said "I"m taking you out for a surprise date".

I apologized to him a bunch of times (arrgh! just do it once!) and he said "It doesn't bother me when you're stressed unless it's at something I've done".

I asked added "or you're not sure why" ('cause he has said it before)

One of the things that I tend to struggle with is letting an incident like this go...so when we were leaving for dinner I started shaking my whole body and I said "look, I'm shaking it off".

Sage