Keep Wearing Wedding Band? [Thread #5]

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Thanks Sara/Coly-- your advice definitely resonates w/ me. I'm not sure whether I can hang in there. There is so much cheerleading in this forum to just keep running this marathon despite all the pain ... I'm not so sure I have what it takes. Everything advised here is so left-brain, so rational ... I have enough left-brain strength to do my work, which is all left-brain but ... there is just this animal right brain part of me that finds it excruciating to be so near my W yet keep my cool, to not desire, to not hurt. At times I just feel like I'm a shallow, hungry dog. Given all that she has done to the R and to me ... why do I find it so hard to sever my desire for her? What does she have to do, to make me simply be repulsed?

Even if I could get to a stage where I'm repulsed by who she is ... there is yet another huge mountain to climb over: to accept seeing my kids only 3.5 days out of the week.