Had a great weekend...hard to believe it's monday already! This is my last week of school for this semester (yeehah!). 'course the summer semester starts May 17th but I do believe that gives me TWO relaxing weeks off!

Friday night h met ME after classes (I was getting my hair done) and we went to a local place for seafood and the Sox game. Saturday was ALL about studying for me -- one study group in the AM and the other in the PM. Yuck. But we did get a lot done.

Saturday afternoon I checked my work e-mail and it turned out that they were having some problem or other that they thought I could fix. They had called my cell 2x but since I never carry my cell when I'm at home I hadn't heard it...there were multiple emails to a BUNCH of people saying "tried to call Sage but she's not answering".

UGH!!!! I really panicked and got super stressed out...called them back...was really upset. It was a stressed out about work feeling the likes of which I haven't had in a LONG time...it was about feeling like I had let them down, feeling pressured to provide a solution, feeling like I was being "talked" about, and feeling as though in the larger scheme of things I just don't care enough about my job to TRY to do better -- to carry my cell around and just wait to crisis solve.

Then, of course, there was the overlay of - is this stressed out reaction the kind of thing that DROVE h away? blah, blah, blah.

h was GREAT. Told me that it doesn't bother him when I get stressed other than to feel concern for me and to NOT want me to feel that way...said that it really only affects him IF he thinks he's the root cause OR he doesn't know what the root cause is (GREAT communication from h!).

He said that he was going to surprise me with a dinner locale and a movie (on demand)...and he did BOTH! h is so very good at comforting me, being there for me. Big-time positive.

Yesterday h had his first baseball game this season. They lost but actually looked pretty good for their first outing. The game wiped us both out (hey, it's HARD to sit there for 3 hours keeping score! ) so the rest of the day we just relaxed...hung around the house, ate dinner in, watched TV. I think h was worried that I was bored (I wasn't) and I told him so!

Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.