Should have also mentioned that W is home with me (actually more than me now) every night with v few exceptions and those are not suspicious.

Thanks for quick reply FY.
Maybe she isn't fully checked out or maybe she is making the best of a bad situation whilst here. Although I focus as much as possible on the positives, she is still checked out. Every day had poor moments too.

I like to think that deep down, she is still here because there is still hope. within her.

I don't think I am still waiting for her to bomb me. I no longer fear it in any case. She can choose to end this anytime....... either way. I am here to seek guidance on how to build on what we have. All help and advice accepted.

I have not read SSM because I felt it was more for committed couples where that side is lacking. I believe our situation is a more general crisis.But I will add it to my list to read. I have listened to Michelle's videos about SSM.

I am outlining as much as possible my situation so people here have a fuller picture and can hence offer more specific advice. If anyone has questions I am happy to answer.

Shortly I will update where I am working on myself and specifically about Caliguys changing traits method. Until then thanks for reading and have a good weekend.


R 25 years
M 14 years
S11 & S13
Working on it alone since Oct 2014
M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years)
Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr.
Next R chat Aug'17
Still together