Good question - I should have pointed out that I stopped filling it out. the "*-it" part was a comment on me not feeling the energy to write about it right now, not a comment on the M. I can see where that would be confusing.
Why I printed out and began filling out was a moment of complete frustration at the situation. I know - I know. I know what I have learned, read, prepared for, worked towards, what I seek in the future, my goals....all this. Just hit a real point of frustration like I have not experienced in my journey so far.
Not angry, not sad, no tears, no apathy, no depression, not trying to make sense of her, or the sitch - in fact nothing that felt like what it used to be at all. Frustration is really the best word I can think of. Wondering if it arrived b/c of all the positive movements made combined with full on fatigue.
I completely understand your thoughts and sentiments here...eerily identical thoughts for several weeks now... I find your comment that it may be due to positive movement combined with fatigue, of particular interest to me...I have been trying to put my finger on a reason for this myself. You have given me something to think on.
CT, feel confident in simply taking a moment to rest, breathe and move your thoughts to nothingness...meditation... the short break can bring you a renewed strength and energy for the next leg of your journey.
I appreciate all that you have shared and supported for me...I am here to return the favor my DB brother. Your are an excellent human being and I look up to you for what you have brought to this table for me and many others. Share some of the same with yourself. You deserve it.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
