Had a very good day yesterday...got thru my presentation to our CEO without losing my mind! Now I don't have to face THAT again for another 2 weeks! (yahoo).

Lots of positives from yesterday:

1. When I got home from work I got a knee weakening passionate kiss from h. These have been increasing in frequency and I HAVE to say I LIKE it!!!

2. h and I went on an evening hike. We had a terrific time, he set a very fast aerobic pace so we really got some great exercise! It's also a terrific time for us to just talk.

3. I had kind of an interesting insight yesterday. I think I've mentioned before that I've struggled with forgiveness of my mom ...just had the feeling that some things "shouldn't" happen. Well, I realized yesterday that I've been carrying around this misperception -- the notion that people who LOVE you don't do certain things...and therefore, since certain things have happened, I must be without love in my life. I think it kind of comes down to feeling as though I need to be perfect (because I AM holding myself to the same criteria) and that others need to be perfect and that if we're NOT then our love is flawed.

BUT...people who love each other DO make mistakes. I HAVE hurt others who are important to me...those I love...and I have been hurt by those who love me...opening myself up to the reality that mistakes and missteps and flaws ARE part of the love experience unblocks me, I think. It allows me to see that forgiveness is not only possible but necessary -- not just for others but also for myself.

It seemed clearer when I had the epiphany yesterday

Anyway...the net is that I realized yesterday that I've been discounting the LOVE in my life based on some misperceptions about the need for PERFECTION in my actions and those around me.

Realizing that seems liberating to me.

Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.