Just remember. You will be happy again. You are not going to be a victim for the rest of your life because you have changed. You are strong. A mere stumble, not even a fall. Totally understandable and there is not 1 person on this board that has not done that several times at least.
Revenge thoughts. It's that Latin blood again!!! WE all have these of course. It's fear and anxiety making you angry and when you are angry you either fight, flee or freeze. You are choosing a fight. You want to hurt her.
Okay. Let's say you did. Prison with your kids. No not really a sensible option, so how to deal with it. Detach that way you can help to stop the fear of losing him.
Surfer.
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