Surfer, thank you. I've briefly seen that you have struggled too. I saw about your S talking in his sleep. Poor thing, my heart breaks for these children who don't understand. We can't even understand it, what hope do they have?!
Your observations and explaining of the grief triangle make a lot of sense. I can see how I fit into that too, I think it is just a natural response, but like you say, with awareness, it gives us yet another perspective and we can work at getting out of this trap. I shall check the vid out later, I'm going to get back focussed in my reading up and self development. And you're right, there's little eyes watching us, so I need to try to set the best example.
I've noted whilst I seem to have given him the power to control my behaviour, I've also began to fix in on ow, and thought of revenge. As much as it may make me feel better for a short length of time- I don't feel it benefits in anyway. I guess it's hurt and jealousy on my part. I think it's just that overwhelming sense of hurt that we're picking up the pieces while they play happy with a new person (i seem to have thrown myself into the victim role again!!
I agree his detachment and reattachment allowed me to become fixated upon the strange behaviour. No use in trying to figure out the impossible . Like you say, time to get to my knees, then stood up, then back on the saddle.
It does hurt, but I'll think of the babies in this and get back to work.
Me 26 H 25 M 4 T 5 Baby born 4/14 BD: 1/15 EA: 2/15 PA: 4/15 reconciling: 4/15 ILYBINILWY- 11/15 ILY-1/16 ILYBNILWY 4/16 ILY 6/16 ILYBINILWY 6/16 Baby due 3/17 BD 8/16
