Pam and CHL -- Thanks for the visit, guys and the support! CHL, I don't think I'll ever lapse into "beating myself up" mode without wondering if you'll find out about it... Thanks for keeping me honest!

I'm not sure HOW h would respond to a request for a ritual...I think it may need to be something tacit..just something I do for myself. I would love it if he were open to one...in fact, I had been hoping for a LONG time that he would "re-propose". That would have been a wonderful sweeping away of the ghosts...but who knows, maybe he's not so sure that the answer would be "yes" quite yet? I have to remember how hard and scary of a time that this has been for him, too.

We went out for dinner and drinks last night. H was very upbeat and charming! He seemed quite happy!!! He's off to a Red Sox game right now with a pal. My goal is successful completion of much homework!!!

I wanted to put in a plug for the new KLA group that's starting up on April 27th...

KLA group

I've found the KLA tapes to be very effective at "unsticking" me ... anyone else here feel like they might want to get unstuck???? Join us!!!

Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.