hey buddy, I am glad you are finding a good foothold in mlc forum! I am also glad that you have recognized that you are still holding yourself back.
eventually you are going to really question why that is and break through and start to really pick up some ground on the Roiste2.0 project. I have already seen the stirrings from your posts, so I know it is inevitable
I am not gEttinger along quite well (except at work). Most of time I have a loaded schedule at home. i / we make plans every weekend to sprinkle between the soccer / football / marching band-chorus-band activities for the kids.
I think that is the biggest difference between Mark of late and Mark from years past, carving out time for me and making time to spend with wife socially or without kids. yes, it does help that my boys are older now (last weekend was S14 homecoming dance as a freshman, those two monkey's are growing fast).
without question, the biggest thing has been the social aspect of my gal. even when I got here and started to get out more, the activities were more focused on alone time...either with wife or by myself. that has definitively changed to being with others too.
looking back I know how lacking my life was of friends. I am breaking down those walls and putting in effort towards forging new relationships and rebuilding lost ones. between the kids activities, neighborhood folks, derby team, gaming groups and even work colleagues I go and so and socialize soooooo much more than i ever did in the past two decades. wife has made similar strides too on her side with her fishing and derby tesm friends, and we have done a lot togethet, too.
I got a text from a guy I haven't heard from in 20+ years that a mutual friend from college bad succumbed to lung cancer last week. we must have sent 100 texts each back and forth catching up. I realized that I missed him even tho I hadn't seen him since he went away to medical school. this weekend I was planing on looking up some old friends from college and high school just to open dialogue and check in.
I guess I haven't said all that much in all of this. I will post more later this weekend about my home life this weekend, I will have some down time. for now I am going to get ready for work.
thank you for keeping an eye on me and I do appreciate you checking in!!!
