Drop the Rope VII

[Cherry]

I think we all get to the occasional stage of feeling as through we are unravelling. I often find that something usually shoots out of nowhere and gives me the strength to carry on, and I'm sure this will happen for you too.

You've plenty of fun things packed in for the weekend, that's good. Fun and laughs surrounded by people we care about truly helps. Hang in there

[Zephyr]

haha, yes cherry I am usury able to find some nugget of wisdom to revitalize myself and give me more fuel to keep going.

these are far and few between lately. I have been enjoying my life tremendously, no BS there. I have actually felt passion for the things I've been doing (no small emphasis on my roller derby invilvement).

this includes making new friends, going out and having a genuinely good time, trying new things. enjoying me. I feel great about that aspect.

it really gives me a better insight for those WAS's who have felt dead inside for so long and finally get a taste of passion. really in my mind that is the thing we are all striving for. whether it be excitement about activities, hobbies, sex, any of it.

mid life and kids really strangle passion out of our lives and seeing that spark makes me want to NOT give thst up. I don't blame my kids. I blame myself. I never made that effort to maintain a life for myself as we started raising a family. neither did my wife. that was our choice and now I know better.

understanding this dynamic makes me see situations on this board a little differently. I read a situation like Rouky's and congratulate her on being strong. denying things she felt were wrong within her heart even though it felt good. That spark of passion was not within her core values and she moved on. passion is something we all crave. I think we just need to find anew outlet to express that. Many of our WAS's don't deny that spark and end up with this crisis.

uugh. I could go on with this all day, but I'm going to get back to work.

thank you for keeping an eye on me and for your support!

mark

[roist]

That is why you are an inspiration here. Despite a not perfect M/R with W you have excelled at pumping your life full of...... well.... life. I envy you in that, but I know the only reasons I don't do likewise are self imposed. I am juggling, tweaking, reflecting and will find the right balance for me. Thedesire is there, the knowledge of its importance and realisabiliy too. I will achieve this but have a good way to go yet. Thank you for proving it is possible within a difficult situation.

[roist]

Early on in my sitch you suggested I check out forever young's threads.AAt the time I did but only went back briefly. I have now read all his threads. Thanks for the tip. I will chat about my thoughts directly on his thread but fair dues to him.

I will double check but I believe he is from.your neck of the woods.

Any best wishes. Have a good weekend. When you feel like it I would like to hear how things are with you.

[Zephyr]

hey buddy, I am glad you are finding a good foothold in mlc forum! I am also glad that you have recognized that you are still holding yourself back.

eventually you are going to really question why that is and break through and start to really pick up some ground on the Roiste2.0 project. I have already seen the stirrings from your posts, so I know it is inevitable

I am not gEttinger along quite well (except at work). Most of time I have a loaded schedule at home. i / we make plans every weekend to sprinkle between the soccer / football / marching band-chorus-band activities for the kids.

I think that is the biggest difference between Mark of late and Mark from years past, carving out time for me and making time to spend with wife socially or without kids. yes, it does help that my boys are older now (last weekend was S14 homecoming dance as a freshman, those two monkey's are growing fast).

without question, the biggest thing has been the social aspect of my gal. even when I got here and started to get out more, the activities were more focused on alone time...either with wife or by myself. that has definitively changed to being with others too.

looking back I know how lacking my life was of friends. I am breaking down those walls and putting in effort towards forging new relationships and rebuilding lost ones. between the kids activities, neighborhood folks, derby team, gaming groups and even work colleagues I go and so and socialize soooooo much more than i ever did in the past two decades. wife has made similar strides too on her side with her fishing and derby tesm friends, and we have done a lot togethet, too.

I got a text from a guy I haven't heard from in 20+ years that a mutual friend from college bad succumbed to lung cancer last week. we must have sent 100 texts each back and forth catching up. I realized that I missed him even tho I hadn't seen him since he went away to medical school. this weekend I was planing on looking up some old friends from college and high school just to open dialogue and check in.

I guess I haven't said all that much in all of this. I will post more later this weekend about my home life this weekend, I will have some down time. for now I am going to get ready for work.

thank you for keeping an eye on me and I do appreciate you checking in!!!

[Zephyr]

I am not getting along quite well

sort of changes thw whole tone, i missue edit

[roist]

Ahh..... that edit button !!

[roist]

Just a quick hi. I may not be around for the rest of the month but wanted you to know you are still being thought about.

Best wishes

[roist]

Hope you are well my friend. Best wishes

[roist]

Happy new year old friend. Best wishes from a brother in Europe.Hope all is well and that you give us an update soon.

I thought your threads were removed!?!?