Letting my weight down...

[sage]

I'm heading out from work...was just listening to a song or two on my computer before leaving...

All of a sudden I was overwhelmed with a wave of compassion and empathy for h and all that he has been thru trying to rebuild this m. with me. Maybe it's the re-reading of my thread (no doubt) but I just felt such sadness over how my insecurities have prolonged the healing. I dunno...I guess his have too in a way.

I'm not dishing out blame here. I'm not beating myself up (CHL). I guess I've just been mired in my recent bout of "I feel weird" crap for so long that I've been completely self-focused. I dunno...something just unblocked it and now I'm left wondering how to heal the hurt that's still there between us.

I don't know...I'm probably not making much sense. It was just as though I could feel hurt and sadness in h's heart -- just another version of an ASSumption, I suppose.

Sage