At this point, not expecting anything different. W seems steadfast in moving forward with this and her attitude hasn't wavered. Oh well. Guess we will see what the next phase of this brings.
Don't believe W is "inviting" me to go out with her and the other moms and kids. Need to think about what I'd like to do with D that night and respond appropriately. We will see.
Papers are all filled out. Have a couple things I need to send over to L tomorrow but the majority of the stuff is complete on my end. Now it's just them, putting the stuff together and us reviewing. W said she'd have an agreement this week. Maybe I get it tomorrow, maybe not. Tomorrow I'll sever the phone lines on our account and she can have her freedom to text away in her mind. She asked again about that today so she's waiting for it. I don't really care at this point, just haven't done it yet bc I've honestly been too busy.
Tonight we had a GAL event for work where we all cut out early and had 50 or so people at a park for cornhole, kanjam, and food. Was a great time and massively needed distraction for me after focusing on all this the past 3 days. There's a girl at work that's a little younger than me and has flirted with me in the past. I've usually just played it off, but I found myself flirting back tonight. Nothing will come of it, but it was actually kind of nice and a good confidence booster. Something different.
Came home to this situation and it was almost like walking into an unfriendly sports arena. W on one side. Me on the other. Our poor D in the middle. Did our "family" thing and put D to bed. I put in the paperwork that I'd like a week on, week off split. I added one day of visitation bt 6-8 by the other parent during each week. To be honest though, I'm not even sure I want that one day with the W at this point. It's such a downer being around her now. I can't imagine how she thinks us seeing each other every night for our D, but living separately would be any different than right now. Right now truly is sad and miserable, probably on both sides, just for different reasons. I keep upbeat and happy but it feels like there is a weight on me.
Who knows though. Weekend coming up. Fallen behind on gym time. Need to get there more and have slacked off. Curious to see what Ws agreements look like when I get them.
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18
