I don't believe anything is hopeless. I know if you look around these forums you will see a lot of people who seem like they are drifting and lost and hopeless. Don't get sucked into following their attitudes and believing you are like them. Do you want to believe it is hopeless or do you want to believe you are the one person who can turn this around? I know that will sound harsh to some but half of what I find inspirational about going to forums like this is the thought that I'm glad I don't have it that bad!