Here we go again....

[matw]

That is exactly what it is looking like right now. She is probably one of the ultimate cake eaters and I know that I am a fool to allow it to continue. I think it will be a lot easier once she is out of the house and in her apartment. Sort of the out of sight out of mind thing. I think the hardest part is I haven't caught her in any lies or doing anything she isn't supposed to be doing. She doesn't text anybody while in our bed, she comes home when she is supposed to, tells me where she is going, she doesn't hide her phone from me, clear browsing history/etc... She stopped being angry with me all the time and actually has conversations with me. Yeah we don't text all day like we used to but that wasn't very healthy and probably very codependent on my part. So I think I am just waiting and being patient until something comes up. TxHubby, you and I both agree that "needing space" is more about needing space away from me to do whatever she wants to do. I want you to know that I really do feel that is what is going on. I guess I am just unsure of what my next move is and have more of a wait and see attitude. I know that once she is out of the house I probably won't see her more than when we exchange kids.

I am still doing my stuff with the pilots license, going to the gym, spending as much time as possible with my kids. I am slowly trying to detach from everything and realizing that the only person in this world I can control is myself.