Hi Focus, I'm sorry you are having a rough time at the moment. Anniversaries aren't easy - particularly the first/early ones. Do try to give yourself a break - practice self care and plan some gentle, soothing things.

Think back to some of the triumphant things you have done in your life recently - that is you! And you will get back to her soon - but there is some grief to process first and that is also an important step to feeling better. It feels hard to feel such grief - but if we don't feel it....well...

Do take care and keep posting if we can help. This too shall pass and you will feel a flutter of lightness in your heart again soon.

((((((Big hugs)))))) xx

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus