Cherry, filing, moving. Gaining strength

[Cherry]

Lovely SH, you had me weeping reading that! Maybe I am on a hormonal day! I think I'm really beating myself up for last night and today. The pain for some reason today feels similar to that from the bd day.

I've got paperworking I've been digging out for financial help once he leaves. So to go through this, I've had to search through papers, momentous, cards, keepsakes all in the same box (obviously I hadn't considered a divorce when I mixed these things together). So I've weeped but carried on through the tears.

It's strange but this feels like I'm mourning a man who is long gone. I seem to have separated the before him and the current him in my mind.

Reading db to spur me on and motivate me and help me help myself. I feel like there is no saving this m. But there is saving me in this.

I really do thank you lovely people, especially on days like today, the support prop is good when I'm feeling a little weak. I had very reduced sleep last night, I spent all night crying and must have got about 4 hours sleep. Everything always seems worse when exhausted