Pam, Minnie, Mooka -- Thanks so much for coming by, my friends! 'tis true that h's sharing with me this weekend really and truly touched my heart...he was SO open and honest with his feelings...

Had a bit of a mini-meltdown last night -- I picked h up from the train station after class -- I was tired from school and from a group presentation I had to make. Also, I was feeling "off" and emotional due to some stuff that had happened with my class group...anyway...we got home and I was off and distracted and not doing a good job of listening to h. Old time Sage stuff...and h noted and sort of walked off. I came upstairs and apologized "I'm sorry I was distracted and trying to open the mail" and he said "that's ok...you always do that".

Sigh.
NO. I USED to always do that.

I don't ALWAYS do that now. I really don't.

But, I need to take his words to heart, right? He didn't say them in anger...just observation.

Tears sprang into my eyes.

Little sage fists came out to beat myself up.

H was great...held my hand, gave me a kiss or two and some giant hugs. Told me he's worried about me -- I'm under so much stress...told me he was taking me out for a surprise date tonight (chock full of positives, no?). that's a wonderful cure for my tiredness and sadness and all.

i asked him if my stress was having a bad ripple effect onto him. He said "no" that my stress only stresses him out when he thinks it might be as a result of HIM! Is that the key? Just letting him know the source and that he HELPS?


Can a gentle soul and a stress queen make it?

Sage

Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.