I encourage that you seek professional assistance for d's anxiety... It is not a good habit for one so young to get trapped by...
I encourage you to venture into the community here to meet new dbers... I think more visitors to your story can shed more feedback and support for you... Just my 2c...
It is good to hear from you my friend.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine