It has been mostly quiet for me. I went to a GAL activity with a couple of friends from work on Saturday. BBQ and baseball game. It was nice, but I did not get much from it. I tried...just an award scene. My one friend is 15 years my younger and the other friend is in the midst of a separation herself and brought her 4 year old son. Cute kid and I would love to have him hang out with D6 as they would get along well I believe...but I just did not feel like it was much fun... What is wrong with me? Maybe it is the efforts i am making to come of the meds? I hope not, because, I do not want to keep taking those things and I want to be me...feel me...feel real peace and joy...grrrr So the week has been nail in my tire Monday, filling popping out of a tooth and getting it fixed today...sleeping better, good energy for my workouts and runs, but head feels like it is thinking in quicksand...
And to top it all off, I may have come to a realization that I have zero social circle as I am cutting loose some friends that just take and take...Why have I put up with this for so many years... I am not seeking that anyone give me anything, but I realized I am sitting around at their beck and call...and the just is not going to work for me anymore...
Anywhoo.... I am doing alright. D18 has expressed concern, but really, I am fine...maybe stuck inside more than I thought, but I gotta get this figured out.
It's late...I have to go get some sleep.
I hope all is well out there in the community...I am checking in...just not so much.
Me 46 Former W 46 D19 D7 BD Feb 2016 WAW moves out 4/16/16 D final 6/1/2017
It's time for me to start changin' the way I look at the world......and at myself. ~James Howlett aka Wolverine
