I just feel him moving further and further away. Which is what I guess they should do. How do you survive each day? I am trying to find hobbies, I see an IC, and I'm part of a support group.
BUT the truth is -- I never imagined I would be here .. without him .. and he would tell me he was happy. I thought we would grow old and I thought the fun times were on their way since our D was getting older. I guess I live in a fantasy world.
They do move further away which is why we have to detach. Its not out of anger nor spite its just simply is loving them enough to let them walk down that steep trail alone. While they are on that trail we should probably check things out, follow the main trail and see what kind of beauty is there, they may catch up ... they may not
You make it through one day at a time, days become weeks, weeks months and with MLC yes ... years do happen. I look back at FB when it posts that "3/4/5 years ago you posted _____" and I stare in shock, was a different life back then, I was a totally different person and TBH, I would not trade it. I labeled it Cali 2.0 and he is much much better than the original.
You will get there, you have a really good chance to work on yourself .... do watch how much of 'this' you submerge yourself in .. it can help but taking a walk or a run does WONDERS trust me.
