Journaling - had quite a nice evening. D and I went tho a college open evening as D will be going to college next September. Although D was less than enthusiastic about giving up precious friend time we managed to find some courses that she would be interested in doing so all in all quite successful. We also had dinner out which is very unusual for mid week!
During dinner we chatted about H. D revealed that she is still very angry with him. He called her yesterday and she let it go to voicemail. I told D that I was worried that she is confusing the breakdown of my relationship with H as being the breakdown of her relationship with him to. She said she understands that but at the moment she feels that him not giving our marriage a chance means he has not thought about how the break up would affect her. It makes me sad but I am not going to try and fix it at she is old enough to make up her own mind.
Still no contact for me from H. I think I realise that he really doesn't like me very much at the moment. This going dark thing is really hard but I don't really have anything much to say to him at the moment so every time I feel weak and I want to contact him I ask myself what is it that I want to talk to him about apart from our R and there really isn't anything.
I keep reading that I should trust the process but I am starting to feel very despondent.... I guess if someone has really shut the door on your marriage there is not much you can do about it... :0(
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')
