Here we go again....

[matw]

TxHubby - Thank you for the reply on my sitch. I really do understand everything you are saying but it is so hard to put into practice. Its strange I am finding it harder this time then I did when we divorced before. I think the biggest problem I am having right now it detaching. Its so strange it feels like some hours I am doing a pretty good job detaching then other hours it feels like that's all I can think about. Today is day 2 of not texting her at all today. Even if its just about the kids... Which I was finding myself texting her to see how they were doing but in reality just wanted some sort of contact with her. I also know that I am the one allowing her to sit on the fence and I think its because I am not ready to have divorce talks again. She has never brought up divorce only that she needs her space. So I think some irrational part of me is so afraid that she will move towards divorce I am not detaching as much as I should. She is doing the ultimate cake eating right now I am sure of it. She doesn't want to lose the family. Also in a little over a month she thinks that she will be able to have both when she moves into her apartment... the family plus her space to be whatever she wants to be.