Yeah, we probably we too co-dependant, but that was the circumstance we were in. I never stopped W having other people to talk too; there were a couple of people she talked to, but she found it difficult, in my eyes, to actually want to form a strong bond with anybody. Only just before BD did she actually latch on to a 'friend' who was having issues in there marriage. W though got burned on that one as they got back together and had a baby, reducing W from being a friend to just another parent at school.
Going to the gym is out of my comfort zone. Everybody seems to be younger, fitter, more exquisite that a middle aged, greying guy who is busy shifting weights. I'm quite impressed with myself though. I now have pretty good leg definition and my arm muscles have grown, meaning I now have significant upper body strength again.
I still feel that W's MLC ticked off when she entered menopause. I also felt she was getting depressed at home (am I the cause, working extra hours to cater for everything?) and I did ask her to see a doctor, but I was told I was pushing her and not soon after we reached BD. I still think it's all about her age and growing older, but I always told her how much she meant to me and how much I still fancied her. Ah well.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
