Here we go again....

[matw]

So last night we all met for dinner with my parents. Everything was going good. She was talkative and seemed to be in a good mood. She had asked me yesterday morning if it was ok that she went to Starbucks after dinner to get re certified (take a test) in Google Ad words. I told her that of course that was ok. While we were waiting for the check to come I told her she can go now if she wants. As she was getting up the made the effort to come over to give me a kiss and a hug before leaving.

I took the time alone with my parents to talk about a GAL activity that has been on my mind a lot. Earlier this year I started down the road to getting my private pilots license. If anybody has done that they know it gets pretty expensive. When of the things my W brought up when we were in counseling was she didn't like how I never asked her if I could do it. I just did it. So I put it on hold and figured it was for the best especially since we were looking to buy a new house. Well since we aren't buying a new house I want to finish and I am going to do it even if she doesn't like it. I need something that is mine and I am slowly coming to the realization that I live a lot of my life for my W. It was rare I did anything for myself for fear of making her angry. So I talked to my parents about starting to fly again and the reasons I was going to do it. So I am really excited about starting this again. Its funny because the Nice Guy in me is nervous about telling W but you know what she is moving to an apartment for her space. So why do I have to check in with her anymore?

So anyways I went home and gave my D a bath. While I was doing that my W starts texting me about the test and everything just some small chit chat. I keep it short and tell her she should get an espresso to make sure she stays awake. Then thats it.. She comes home after a little less than 2 hours. Ask's me how everything went then jumped in the shower. We laid in bed cuddling our D then went to sleep. Pretty uneventful evening.

Today I am doing the same thing with the no texting unless she texts me first. When I got to work she called me saying our D wanted to speak to me. So I talk to D for a little bit then talk to W for about 5 minutes about taking the kids to library tonight to get books and what not. So now I really have no reason to text her today and I am going to do that. Like I have said in earlier posts we texted a lot and I am sure we talked to much during the day.. So this will be a big 180 for me.