RBG -

What you "know" didn't work.

It's time to become s new, healthier RBG, I think

That starts by breaking your co-dependence.

You have all the time you want to do new things and make new friends. The best thing I ever did was to make new friends that had never met my ex. They didn't know me as "my ex's spouse"...they knew me as "Darknes".

So yes, it's time to start to step out of your comfort zone.