What about the part of your future that doesn't involve relationships? Do you have a bucket list of things you'd like to do? What would an ideal day look like?
This was more my point. You need to find Alice where you can be happy on your own. It isn't the responsibility of your wife or any other person to make you happy. That's your job. Yes, your partner can bring you happiness, but if you require them to be the sole source of it, that's not healthy.
So I think you need to really work to get a life. You say you don't have any hobbies, well, then, now is a great time to try some things out. You have plenty of time to figure out what you like.
How about next weekend. What new thing can you try? I know it won't be comfortable or easy, but TRUST ME, it's the best thing you can do for yourself.
